survivor.
ive been stuck with blogspot for quite awhile and decided for a change. and finally i am. i’ll be closing my blogspot soon and so readers, any updates will be post here instead. please note. thank you.
and so i had my first day of prcp in school. yes, tell me about it. i dragged myself to school and obviously im having difficulties to wake up on time. ive been pampering myself with tv, youtube, msn till midnight or later. i guess this should stop. ive gotta prepare myself for prcp.
yes, prcp equals to 14 weeks of hell in godknowswhere hospital. damn. the thought of having no freedom and the shift work, making me even depress. how i wish i could turn back time, where i could actually strive for better results to get into a better course. honestly, this is not what i want. i dont want to be a nurse. i dont intent to be one..but im thinking again. am i giving myself a chance? am i making the decision too fast that i dont want to be one?
well, regarding that..ive yet to find out. hopefully i dont have to disappoint anyone. till then.
me: i hate what im doing right now. i dont want to be a nurse. im sick and tired feeling what im feeling right now. having to cry before work, during work and even after work. ive got 14 weeks till i graduated. i know i can do it but im scared. and i dunno about what and why.
dad: its ok. its ok if you dont wanna be a nurse. but you just complete your course and get a diploma ok syg. we will talk about this when i get back. take it easy. at times youre scared of nothing. you have done well so far and need not to be scared dear.
p/s: im having a tiff with dearest bf. hopefully everything’s gonna be fine. amin.
